My Observation on Society and Myself

 I live my life with open arms. 

I've been told I don't see the bad in any person or situation. This is true. I live my life with open arms. However, just because my arms are open, my eyes are usually shut, and there's no denying it. I usually end up playing myself or getting played. No matter how often I've been proven wrong, I always give someone or a situation the benefit of the doubt because of hope. 

I HOPE they are a good person. 

I HOPE they show me that they are different. 

I HOPE that something goes the way that has the best outcome. 

I HOPE they had a good upbringing like myself.

I HOPE they have some relationship with Jesus. 

I HOPE the environment around me will enrich my soul. 

I HOPE they have pure intentions and a heart like my own. 

I HOPE the sight I'm about to see leaves a positive imprint in my mind. 

But the older I get, the more I see, the more I'm proven that there are bad people in the world. There are scams, internet phishing, counterfeit checks, "shopping spree" scams, and so many other ways people take advantage of others. There are self-defense classes and rape whistles for victims of terrible things. People steal identities like it's a game of who can have the biggest army of toy soldiers. There are murders, domestic abuse, robbery, and mass shootings. How can we not ask, "What has become of our world?" 

We can't even blame it on our government or economic standpoint. It's simply the people. Have you ever thought about how the Jeffery Dahmer series is basically showing other people how to become a serial killer, even though their intended purpose was to educate and inform the world of this disgraceful human? 

--"Jenna, why are you bringing all this up?"

--"Because it dawns on me more and more every day that we live in a scary world. Working in a bank and seeing the ins and outs of the financial aspect of the world is eye-opening. I have to treat each transaction on a worst-case-scenario basis. It's so crazy to see all the different ways that something could go badly."

I think it's so wild to me because, in the healthcare field, you are expected to treat each patient with trust, dignity, and respect regardless of their status. Whether they were a prisoner in hand and ankle cuffs, a homeless person, a drug addict going through withdrawal, or just any average person who needed medical attention. It was our duty to see the best in each scenario so that we could translate the positive energy to the patient. I was the person who found something good in each patient, except if they were being snotty to me. At that point, I got snotty back and was able to play their games. 

What I'm saying is that there are good and bad people in the world, and I have a bad habit of believing anything anyone says. (I was called "gullible Gary" by my friends growing up.) As someone who has been scammed by a bad person, I know there are much worse people, but it doesn't dawn on me usually until after the fact. 

It's a sad fact that we live in a scary world, but it's part of my soul to have a big heart for strangers. I'll continue hoping for the good in people because otherwise, I'll lose all my faith in humanity, and my fragile heart can't take that. So whether you're pessimistic or optimistic, a good or a bad person, just try to have a good heart and pure intentions with the universe. Keep our humanity intact; there is already too much working against us. 

With love, 

Jenna K.