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"You deserve a nice boy." - Manifested by Audrey Roberts, a very intelligent woman, June 2023 I have a love/hate relationship with "love." I'm 20 years old and haven't had a boyfriend. I have gone on dates, opened up to new people, and had talking stages and situation-ships, but I don't know what it's like to be completely loved by someone you love entirely in the form of a significant other.  I know heartbreak because of a boy who asked for a kiss the morning I left and never spoke to me again.  I know toxic because of a boy who left me on the side of the road when my car broke down driving to him.  I know violence because a boy told me he would "beat my ass and kill the other man if I were to cheat."  I know being catfished because of a boy who showed up at my house, and within 30 minutes, he was on his way back home because I was too uncomfortable.  I know being friend-zoned because of a boy who made me feel understood but didn't...

 The other day I was at an event talking with a guy a couple years older than me. We got to the point of the conversation where small talk became deeper. He said, "I'm going to guess your birthday."....moments later... "It's giving *pause* Virgo." My jaw was on the floor. Since he said that, the thought, "What does he mean it's giving??" goes through my head daily. So like most do, I pulled up Google and started discovering what he meant.  --"How did he just know you were a September baby?" --I don't know, but it was so awesome. Unique man. Google search: "What gives Virgo?" Google result: Virgo Personality Traits: All the secrets you need to know Perfect.  Horoscopes are a gray area because where are the facts right?  Virgos are humble, kind, and sympathetic. Virgos put their whole heart and soul into a project. Virgos are loving and modest.  Virgos are eager to assist others.  Virgos thrive on academic and intimate co...

As mentioned before, music is important to me. For example, my Spotify wrapped for 2022 hit me with the reality check that I listened to 92,716 minutes over the year. The average person listened for 27,000 minutes...  So now that we understand the fact that Jenna listens to a lot of damn music, I had to find a way to unpack the over-brewed idea of tattooing a bunch of words onto my arms in the form of lyrics from my favorite and most personal songs. I remember telling my mom about the idea, and the look of disapproval indicated I needed to rethink it.  First, I want to explain my relationship with music. When I hear a song, I associate it with someone, whether it be myself or someone else in my life. I listen to the lyrics in a way that I understand what is being voiced. Each verse written below came to me in the moment, and each has someone connected with it, some happy and some not so happy. A good way to describe what music does for me is that it puts my thoughts and values...